it seems like everytime I try to be less careless..i end up being more careless...as much as you may be confused, it doesn't matter, but that's what it seems like this past week or maybe just more so today. There are things I do that are stupid and i know, but it's not like I WANT to do these things, so I can feel like I'm careless or have other people see me as careless and always messing up everything that I own.

Sometimes you need to do the right thing for YOURself, even if it may be against what everyone else thinks is right...just needed to write this down so I can remember..

Things that make me happy:

white chocolate mousse from tcby
chocolatee ( twix bars, carmilk, WHITe chocolate, mint choc...just choCOLATE :D
fast food..."that goes straight to your thighs.."hahaha
sleeping way too much
beautiful weather in Novemeber
walking down uptown waterloo with the sun shining and a light breeze
gelatos with maril
hanging out with rev girls and having fun even if time has passed..good memories of last year =)
knowing people are there for you despite the fact that you may not see or talk to them as much
being silly with my girls
how everyone is so indecisive haha...;)
oasis
singing in the showerr...^^
tapiocas
having fridays off :) thus 3 day weekend...EVERy weekend
snow..when it does come...and hopefully in DecEMBEr
family
YOU! =P

i'm kat
i smell and i never post
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I now understand what people mean when they want to go back home for weekends when they were away for university. All through out university, going back home was not a big deal for me..cause it really was jUSt 5 mins away :p I mean yes I would go visit my family every now and then, but it's not like something that I wanted to do every day or weekend or what not..wait- that sounded bad. BUt anyways..i guess As much as I love Montreal right now, I think going back home now brings a different meaning..cause it's no longer 5 mins away but 5 hours away and i will have to travell and...it's just a different feeling. I like the city here, the food, the lifestyle so far,..but i guess i do miss home too..the simple life, the people.. and i think there some things you never really understand until you experience it for yourself.

i've been meaning to post more, but I always and I mean ALWAYs make it a habit to start writing something, save it to draft and by the time I go back to it, its so "old news" that I might as well just start another post :P and also i'm so lazy sometimes that it doesn't really help either ;P

But anyways...I am now officially in MOntreal. I remember talking about it for so long, and now i'm actually here. Time really flies..i've only been here for 4 days, but it seems so much longer...can't quite decide whether that's a good thing or a bad thing yet...i guess it's good that I have more time to spend on my research..prayers please:D this is the first time that i've actually really done this kind of research and kinda nervous about it..!I need and want to do a good job. Montreal is definitely a lot different from the loo,I've never lived in a big city before, but so far I am enjoying it :) Everything is so convienient, mall, food, mcgill, and home! I love food..it makes me happy :D hehe

I haven't done too much shopping yet, except for the first day that we came where we met up with herman and posner (herman's friend) and they took us shopping! annnnnd we ended up buying NOTHING! I know..crazy eh!! BUT there is still TIME :D It was also raining that day, so we didn't get to do any sightseeing either..shuchks :( BUt as for now, My day pretty much consists of getting up at 7:30 ( well, that's basically what time i've been waking up these past few days) my godister wakes up a lot earlier, like around 6. she has a cockatail name dute dute..i probably spelled it wrong..but it's so cute. WHen i figure out how to post pics on my blog, i will show pics of her! :) We head to the university at around 8:30, get there by 9...it's a 20 min walk, but it doesn't feel like it at all, its actually quite refresehing to walk so early in the morning :) My hours are pretty flexible, besides the fact that I have class from 11-1:30, the rest of hte day is up to me to study, do research and little things that may pop up. We usually eat at about 7..or so, depending and then go home afterwards. We either go out to eat or eat at home..yesterday she made grilled sandwihc which was SO good! annnd she's nice to me jasy ;P We've had pAD THAI :D i love itttt! Anyways, although it is not a set schedule, I will have to set my own schedule so i get everything done within the time period I have..so hopefully I will be more disciplined and foocused!just sometimes the days go by so fast that you dont feel like you did anything, but so far I am enjoying it. MCgill campus is nice too..it's kinda like western with the "castle looK" but an older versionish.

I promise to update more..and I MISS ALL you guys! :D

THe ONE night we want bubble tea, me and maril BOtH realize that we left our wallets BACK AT RES! ( i took it out this morning, thinking I WOULDN"t need it)..sigh, so sad and we were ALL craving bubble tea! than me and emzhei walked around DC...the wHOLE library, to TRY to find someone we knew, we mustve looked soo funny cause people kept on staring..haha..BUT the one night we wanted to find someone, there was no one heeeere :(

i think maril and emzhei are making faces behind my back! they are laughing non stop...sooo freaky! hahahhaa

So, over dinner today at Brubaker's with Maril and Emzhei (which btw, the chicken was extremely good tonight :)} we started talking about our major or what we would like to do in the near future..which is gonna come by sooner than we think...espcecially since tHIS term has gone by suuper fast! BUt anyways, so I was just telling them how I chose econ as my major ( kinda scared now, cause i have to do MAth next year :S:S:S) BUt anyways, here comes the funny part..maril (in a VERY exicted voice) goes "you know what you should be A CIRCUS CLOWN" HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA...it was soo funny....but it's definitely a potential career for me! hahah. WE are now at DC studying...but we want bubble tea!!! okay..tata for now.!

"Our time together has made us friends, don't let our time apart make us strangers"

I remembered this quote the other day and it made me think about..how often does this quote actually reflect the friendships we have...or the amount of time we have to talk and catch up with certain people? For some, when you see someone again( lets say friend), it seems like no time has passed and so easy to catch up with one another, while it's difficult or harder for others to catch up.. I dont know..there just seems to be a distance this term between people, whether they are close or further away..and it's just differnt and sad that convos consist of hi how are you..and not much more..sometimes.

I think I have literally watched like 10 movies in the past WEEK..not month, not year..A WEEK....I mean it's not SOO bad to catch up on my movies ;) but I don't think I should make this a weekly habit :P aaand I just went to watch HITCh with jasy, jo and herman..it was a good movie, very funny..will smith is so cute ;) BUt I probably shouldn't have gone..since I think I am going to TO with my parents tomorrow...well I wasn't going to cause I have a couple things I *should get done..but I would feel guilty if I had the time to spend watching a movie today , and then not have the time to go to TO with them toomorrow..I mean yes a day trip and a 2 hour break is different...BUt i guess I shouldn't sacrifice "family time" to do work that may not even get done anyways..and dont know where else i'm really going with this..but yah..will do workie tonite...and I LOve sleeep.

something my dad sent me..it's a good read :)

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I can't believe reading week is here...it seems like just yesterday that this term just started. This term has gone by MUCH faster than last term and I think of what I have gotten out of it...time just goes by so fast and half the time i don't even know what I do with the time I have...well yes i have been trying to study a lot more this term..but I also know that I need to learn to focus my time on other stuff as well. As important as school is, I need to learn to set time aside to focus and spend time on things that are also important to me..that I am still learning.

BUt, I am exicted to go to to TO when I see my godsister who I haven't seen in awhile..and shop for dresses for her wedding :) and also just hang out with friends for a couple days without worrying about what i have due the next day :P And I'm also ..kINda exicted to go home...it'll be nice to be home for a bit and just relax and feel cozy:)

I reorganized my shelves today..makes me feel somewhat cleaner than before ;P haha i'm not a neat freak thou..atleast not as much as I was before :P

i was looking up sites for my cs lab and thought this was quite funny :P maybe you guys will too..but most likely, it'll probably just be me laughing my butt off haha click here

At the moment..i feel confused and unsure about what I want to do with my life..what major to choose...I know that there are a lot of people that may be feeling that too...but I don' t know going to the session today regarding majors just made me think how I should atleast KNow.. kinda...and it feels like I'm on the edge with marks.. I just feel like I should have an idea about what I WANt to do, but the sad thing is I'm not sure...and if it'll turn out.

God, I just need your guidance.

BUt on another note..I finished the last of my midterms today..4 in 3 days, i always have the worst schedule and it always sucks how my schedule conflicts with those people in science...sorry to those that I haven't been spending as much time with...it's true how things can change from one term to the next..but i'll try harder :)

Sometimes letting out a good cry, always makes you feel better..

there is nothing wrong..just wanted to say that.

I'm going to retreat tomorrow after doubting whether to go or not due to midterms but i have decided to go..it will be a good experience..and hopefully everything will turn out well. I think i need to stop worrying so much all the time, and just have faith that He will make everything turn out. I need to learn to balance my schedule more this term...it feels like i'm losing touch with people or dont know what's going on anymore..i need to set my priorities..i need to learn to be patient..i need to learn to think more...not that i don't think..actually sometimes i think i don't..but i think just think more effectively...and i need to learn how to appreciate everything mroe..